New Year Conclusions and Resolutions

I stand here in January 2014 and look at my life, my desires, what has gone wrong, what has gone right, and I come to a realisation. I am not getting it all right. I am getting something’s right, but my career area is failing me. I have spent the last three to four years working my butt off, trying to help others through spiritual guidance and healing, through sharing what I have learnt. And I HAVE helped many, but I haven’t earned a living. I have tried everything I know of to earn a living and it hasn’t happened. I have HELPED our financial situation, as a family, in fits and starts, but it cannot be relied on. And I have become tired of it. I am tired of working so hard, toiling at a computer learning how, and then putting into action ways of being noticed on the internet, using blogs, social networks, etc, etc. I DON’T WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE!

I am demoralised, I am disheartened and I am sick and tired of it. Don’t get me wrong I have learnt a lot, and I have furthered my own spiritual path and understanding. And perhaps that is all I was supposed to do. I have a yearning to help others, through guidance and teaching, but I am not sure if this is the way to do it. I have tried all the methods out there, worked on energetic reversals ( I still don’t like charging to help others), I have healed many things in the process and found many facets to who I am that I didn’t know of.

Over the last three weeks I have hardly gone near a computer, and it feels good. It feels like I am regaining my life and my family. Of course the downside is I am not earning any money, because I am not spending every waking hour trying to earn money. And in that there is a clue. If it ain’t working after all this time, I’m either missing the point entirely or I am not doing what I should be doing!

I am telling you this, as it is what I do. When I am unsure, sad, down, happy, excited, inspired, I write it down. So writing continues, as it is a part of who I am. As for the rest…..who knows. But I have made one resolution for this year…..I am going to find out what the hell I can do to earn a living and feel good about doing it!!!

Kirsten Ivatts

2 thoughts on “New Year Conclusions and Resolutions

  1. I hate my day job most days. I’ve given thought to work that would be more spiritually based, but at the end of the day, I just don’t want to link my spiritual self to my paycheck; it’s too fraught with large ego potholes in that path for me.

    I work more toward having creativity in my daily life and dream of deriving a paycheck from that effort. It’s not easy being self-employed and you have worked so hard for so long, I really hope 2014 brings you and I more financial stability and more peace of mind with our source of income.

    You’ve got it in you to get this worked out, I know this from seeing your efforts through the years. I look forward to seeing what you come up with!

  2. Thanks Flora……more than anything its the frustration, which I know you understand! I feel like waving my fist at…Goddess knows where…and shouting ‘What do you want from me?!’

    Phils new job is also throwing in an extra punch as things are so up in the air…when and where will we move to….

    At the same time I feel that everything is going in the right direction. I am in some ways uplifted by how I am feeling as it is a step in the right direction.

    Lots to ponder and many questions to ask.

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